Stacy

Dear Stacy,
We were such good friends. We had fun just hanging out and eating smartfood and dr. pepper together. Then, u met ur now husband Val. I was just immature and didn't realize that when u fall in love and are about to get married that everything else goes to the wayside. I thought you were abandoning me. I didn't understand until it actually happened to me. Trust me I understand now. I wish I had been a better friend. I wish I could reconnect with you and see how your life is. I'm sure ur happy though!

Dear so and so

It's been awhile since I posted on this blog. I was reading past comments from previous posts and SERA u gave me a brilliant idea. I am going to start writing post to past people!

sick

Last night George took Tatiana with him to 24 hour fitness and put her in the daycare there while he worked out. When they came home we started to undress her to take a bath and discovered she was naked under her pants. No pull up. As far as I know 24 hour does not change diapers or take kids to the potty they page the parent when that happens. We felt really weird about this. Why was she naked? Why wouldn't the woman watching her have told George if she had taken her to the potty? It is not like Tati could have taken the pull up off herself and put her pants back on. The sad thing is we will never really know what happened. I just pray my daughter wasn't the victim of something sick. I did call 24 hour and I am waiting for a manager to call me back. We also called the police and filed a report just in case.

Too much

I have NEVER EVER been this exhasted. I can only think about making it to the end of the day let alone this pregnancy. Why are two year olds so hard? She is so stubborn right now I feel like we are constantly fighting and I am constantly yelling at her. I have been so sick during this pregnancy. We are so cramped in this house and I cannot keep it clean. I feel like there is clutter EVERYWHERE. I am also worried that after I have this baby I will still be this exhasted. I so hope I don't get the baby blues. I have yet to get more than three good hours of sleep. ARRRRGGGH

The quest for awesomeness...

I want to be cool. I am so uncool these days. I see so many people who have something that makes them cool. I want to dress super cute, or have great hair, or have loads of money, or perfect children, or always go on super fun trips, be the best decorator for my home, or be extremely athletic and so much more. I am not too good at those things. In fact I have a hard time thinking about what I AM good at. I know I am good at being incredibly vulgarer and making people blush if I really want to. Sera you know this true....I could always one up you on raunchiness. I have had to tame that down now so that talent is bye bye. SADLY. I am pretty awesome at watching TV. I do love a good confrontation and fancy myself quick at comebacks. But what are these? WASTED TALENT.

z

I feel like when I really need people they aren't there. I am feeling very unimportant these days and underappreciated. Maybe these are pregnancy emotions? I think I am extremely loyal to those important in my life and would do anything for them. Is it too much to expect the same? I know I am a strong person but sometimes I need some help.

IDIOT

I am a very irritable person naturally. I WISH this was not a trait that I possessed but I do. The thing is now with this pregnancy and extra stress everywhere (money, pregnancy problems, two year old) I am sooooo irritable. I don't know how to control it or keep it in check. Things just annoy the hell out of me now. And unfortunately, if something is annoying or irritating me I can't just keep it to myself. I have to let it out. Poor George gets all the vent sessions, that is if I can control not actually telling the actual person who is irritating me. I can see myself getting irritated and know that it is for a ridiculous reason and I can't make it go away. Things that happened ions ago will suddenly pop up in my head and I will get so upset. How do I release this? Do I need some happy pills? Can you even take them when you are pregnant? Do I tell my OB about this? GRRR...